Hey everyone? How have you all been doing? I hope you all have been doing very well (let me know!)

I want to say a BIG thank you to the comments I received in my last journal way back when last fall. You guys are truly the best!! Now that school is finishing up in a month or so I'm really excited to get back to some art on here!

Ok I guess I'll let you in on what's been going on lately (read at your own risk!)

Well, I don't really know what to say anymore. Every time I have some hope and positive attitude, I just get let down by people again and again. I keep on wondering when I'm going to get a break, but it doesn't seem to be in the future at all. See how negative I am? It's terrible, really. I hate the person I have been turning into this past year. I mean, I'm already 19 and should be getting a little bit mature anytime soon now!! I need to toughen up a little bit, but I still don't really know how!

Trying to transfer into this university has been incredibly stressful. I live in a different city than the college and none of the offices or advisors have put any real effort into contacting me back and making me feel welcome. They keep passing me from advisor to advisor, and none of them listen to what I'm saying or express any interest in helping me. I never would've guessed that advisors at a four-year college would be worse (worse = weird, inept at communicating via long-distance means, flat-out lying, etc.) individuals than advisors at my community college. Everyone here at my current school has been so nice, even though all I hear from people is how " pathetic " two-year schools are. Sometimes I truly don't understand the world!

Anyway, I'm really not quite sure what I should be doing anymore in my life. My situation and negative attitude is constantly stressing out my parents, and that makes me feel even more ashamed. I wish I could just turn the thinking switch off in my brain and relax and be happy and nice all the time. I'm kind of stuck going to this university now, so I guess I'll just finish up my undergraduate degree in two years and be done with it, although it's been pretty stressful lately just trying to communicate with them.

Perhaps this is all just a bit of nonsense that I'll have forgotten about in a few years from now, but whatever the heck is going on, all I know is that I need some sun!!! Come back...sun...

Anywho, I'm not sure if any of you have advice or consolation, but I'm always eagerly listening!!

Take care for now